Mother-In-Laws neglected pussy hasn’t been fucked in years

I was mortified to find my son-in-law sat at the kitchen counter as I walked in wearing nothing but my flasher coat, heels and lingerie. I prayed that he hadn’t noticed however that mattered little when I wanted the ground to swallow me up. I had told my husband that I had special plans for him. I hinted at the fun I had planned. Him going ahead and making plans with my daughter and her husband only confirmed what I had feared. He just wasn’t interested anymore. I don’t know if it’s me he no longer fancies or whether he just isn’t interested in sex at all. Either way it’s been eating me up inside. My confidence really took a knock. I know that my son in law was probably just being nice. In hindsight I know he was, he was trying to diffuse and embarrassing situation and I threw myself at him so desperate for touch. So desperate to feel attractive. I don’t know how I will ever forgive myself however lay there dripping